๐๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐๐ฆ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ข๐๐ฅ๐!!…๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐!!!, ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐๐ฒ๐๐, ๐’๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐!!!
๐๐ญ ๐๐จ๐๐ฌ๐ง’๐ญ ๐ฆ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ, ๐ข๐ญ’๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ.
The easiest, quickest way of changing the way you feel, when the same people, are pushing the same buttons.
That warmth, flushing through your body, a rush of feel good chemicals, that’s better.
Let’s be real, you choose how you respond to the way you think and feel, not alcohol, or any addiction.
Something deeper, conditioning, changes us, the way we look at life, and life easily becomes unbearable.
๐๐ฌ๐ง’๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐๐จ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ซ๐จ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ, ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ง ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ “๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฆ” ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ?
At school, I played the Double Bass, I loved it, no BIG DEAL. To the teachers involved however, it was.
They invested “some” effort forcing, not asking, me to attend – Orchestras, and Bands, which were out of school hours.
They didn’t seem to care what I wanted, they had their agenda, and I was to follow it, while I understood, it was in my best interests.
I’d simply fight anyone, or anything, I didn’t believe in. This was about control, and the person also fighting to gain it over me, this felt natural.
You’re then expected to apologise for, and offer reasons behind your behaviour, until you fall in line.
I had no self-awareness, I’ve also taken responsibility for my life, I don’t make excuses.
I started drinking, I enjoyed it, the way it allowed me feel, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary.
Others around me, didn’t share my views, and my behaviour caused mayhem in life.
In business, it was used as another means of controlling me, this I fought, because I again understood what was happening.
This cycle must be broken, making a decision to change, to look deeply at yourself, and the tools you are using to change the way you feel.
Allows you the opportunity to change your relationships, and life. Alcohol didn’t almost killed me, the lifestyle I chose to live, did that.