๐ป๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐ – ๐ฏ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ & ๐ช๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐
Drinking ๐บ๐ฅ again, became immediately irrelevant, the moment I’d decided to change my life
Moving forward – can be the only intention
Finally, being capable of thinking straight, with no alcohol, or chemicals of stress, flowing through my “system”
In 2014 – It became clear
I’d been blinkered in my approach, defiantly living an automatic lifestyle, that could only ever be disastrous
Playing into the hands of others, as they blamed, everything that wasn’t a fit for them, on my behavior
With not one of us, taking responsibility for ourselves
I’d take back my power – ๐พ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ฉ๐ฎ
My Personality – the way I – Think, Feel and Act
If you want a different life, you’re going to do this anyway, you might as well be actively involved
I’d no longer talk about who I could be, the life I wanted
It was imperative, I upgraded to version 2 of myself
And repay the many compliments
That had been paid to me, over the years
Grow – Seek & Destroy – was the new game I’d play
Spending a week in an ICU means
You’ve hit ROCK BOTTOM – FULLY DISINTEGRATED
This isn’t a time, to feel sorry for yourself
That isn’t constructive, & will make things worse
Using the โก previously utilized to dig a ๐ณ๏ธ
I’d regain my muscle mass, health and fitness
Ignoring my specialist who said, it was not possible
My long-term goal – oust my business partners – and take control of the business I’d been fighting over
For 20 years
It took commitment, & wasn’t always easy, it was, however, mostly enjoyable, & the results ๐๐ป
An extremely pleasant experience, walking back into our office, dressed in my training kit, post-gym session
Setting boundaries, without saying anything
You’re looking fit, I don’t believe, was a compliment
Unhealthy, the 16-year-old me, might have been
At least he was EMPOWERED and got most of the things he wanted in life, which “helped” with his unhappiness
Unfortunately, he’d never learned to deal with loss, & so
Had been stacking one, upon another, for decades
Raising his levels of self-awareness, as he challenged himself – helped him – conquer the ridiculous competitiveness/need to be better than you
Resolve his underlying REPRESSED/SUPPRESSED issues, that had been increasingly harder to carry
He began to enjoy life, like never before
This allowing for something strange to happen
He found peace in his body & mind, then healed
Gaining new levels of EMOTIONAL & SPIRITUAL INTELLIGENCE – he began judging both himself & others less – ๐ life on another level
Gradually, the idea that he’d share his โก with the people who’d watched him dying in front of their ๐
Wish to continue fighting them, or life, diminished
He understood what he wanted to do with his life
Something he’d not previously known – PURPOSE
GROWTH doesn’t STOP until YOU say so โค๏ธ๐ง โก๐งฌ