!!! LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES !!!
We can either change it in a state of pain and suffering, or a state of love and joy.Hallucinating for days, furniture turning into people watching and talking to me, believing they were attempting to break into the house, swinging a walking stick around the dining room, then witnessing the hairs on my legs grow through the duvet, faces, people, more talking.
All of this, while my both myself and my family were beside themselves with fear and no comprehension of what was happening.Blood pressure through the roof, Valium and a hospital bed, spiders and snakes, crawling up onto it and over my face.
This was an horrendous experience and yet it wasn’t enough, for me to make the choice.On my return to work, encountering the behaviour I’d become accustomed to, I decided to fight, not to be controlled and certainly not to leave the business, to be pushed out of it.Another decade of destructive behaviour, drinking, pain, yellowness and dis-ease, then came the inevitable NDE.In reflection, I wonder why, when the fighting was passive, not moving me forward in any way, instead playing into the hands of the people I was doing battle with.
With more understanding of myself and the others involved, changing the relationship and my priorities in life, after all that, I walked away.